I did not know where to begin not with a language, though a language was one of the things I wanted. Not with any of the skills my mind kept reaching toward understanding how websites worked, learning to write in a way that might reach another person, building something of my own that would last … Read more
Starting from zero is a gift because it hands you something that comfort never can: the chance to build a self you actually chose. I did not always believe that. For a long season I stared at the open space where my skills, my confidence, and my proof could one day stand, and I called … Read more
There was a time when I looked at my life and saw nothing. Not nothing in the sense of emptiness or despair. Nothing in the sense of anything an emptiness where nothing had been built yet, but where anything could be built. I was lost days and weeks and months were passing, but nothing was … Read more
The pattern is always the same I would hope for something support, understanding, a small gesture that said I was not alone. And then that hope would be denied. Not always with cruelty. Sometimes simply with silence. A message that was never returned. A promise that quietly evaporated. A door I thought was open that … Read more
The question wouldn’t leave me alone not the kind of question someone asks you when they hear about your situation. That question is easy to answer because it belongs to them, and their curiosity is brief. The question that kept me awake came from somewhere much closer. It came from the space between my capability … Read more